[ she did. she thinks so many of these cyoa effects are annoying, and it is tiring her out. she is taking advantage where she can and feeling terrible about it later. ]
It does bring me comfort. I have spoken a little to everyone. I will not force any details from anyone, so if that is a worry... you may rest, but if you are willing to say anything...
You are as considerate as ever. [ he thinks it over a moment ] I believe that we endured much hardship in that place, and we were forced to cause much harm to one another.
Luke, especially, carries much guilt for the hurt that he caused... I would like to lessen his burden, yet I find myself lacking.
I do not think it is you alone, who is feeling helpless in how to lessen the burden or the guilt. It is a little difficult to get through to him so soon.
[ because of his cyoa effect, she feels, but even without the effect, feelings are more powerful and raw in their immediacy. ]
In a couple days, we can all try again... and hope for improvement.
That is likely a fair assessment. I am rather startled at myself in this moment, to not be consumed with self-loathing as I would have been a mere fortnight past.
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[ thanks captain obvious ]
I would be glad to lend an ear to whatever you may wish to get off your chest.
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[ he was weirdly off when he came back and doesn't seem as off right now, but she is sure something is probably off. ]
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If I am troubling you, then I shall remove myself from your presence.
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he stays in place ]
If it brings you comfort, then I shall remain here. [ he pauses ] Have you spoken to the others?
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It does bring me comfort. I have spoken a little to everyone. I will not force any details from anyone, so if that is a worry... you may rest, but if you are willing to say anything...
[ well, she is here because she is concerned. ]
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You are as considerate as ever. [ he thinks it over a moment ] I believe that we endured much hardship in that place, and we were forced to cause much harm to one another.
Luke, especially, carries much guilt for the hurt that he caused... I would like to lessen his burden, yet I find myself lacking.
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[ because of his cyoa effect, she feels, but even without the effect, feelings are more powerful and raw in their immediacy. ]
In a couple days, we can all try again... and hope for improvement.
[ or at least a willingness to listen. ]
But I did try to tell him it was all right.
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[ glances at her ]
You've a way with kindness and understanding, Mistress Shouxue. It is a tragedy that you have spent so much of your time alone.
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[ that's in a very hmph! kind of tone to his comment on her kindness. ]
It is better that way, in the end.
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[ doubt ]
Has speaking to the others assuaged your concern at all?
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[ just matter=of-fact. ]
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That is likely a fair assessment. I am rather startled at myself in this moment, to not be consumed with self-loathing as I would have been a mere fortnight past.
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That is forthright of you. It continues to worry me, but I also do not want you to be consumed with those feelings.
[ it's a dilemma. ]
I do not like it that your sense of self is being manipulated.