[Ah... he looks away, lifting a shoulder in a light shrug.]
I'm okay. You don't have to worry about me. [Local man says, always. But... Dion was there that night, and even though Luke is still very much the sort of person who keeps things close to his chest, he's been forced to talk about this often enough by now that the apology comes a little more easily than it used to.] ...But I'm sorry for--making you deal with that.
[He has apologized to so many fucking people for painblasting them and they have all told him to stop being an idiot but THAT SIGN CAN'T STOP HIM BECAUSE HE CAN'T READ etc]
[WOW... HOW COULD YOU NOT BELIEVE A PROVEN LIAR...
He looks awkward at the call-out, because he's still so unhappy about his secrets being pried out of him, but there's nothing to be done for it now.]
Don't be. [He doesn't stress that there was nothing they could've done anyway; he gets the sense Dion understands that.] I've been better down here than I was up there. ...A few of us have been.
[Which is kind of fucked up and he doesn't like to think about it too much, but it is the truth.]
[Technically, he meant it strictly in a physical sense, but--as Dion says it, Luke realizes that it is, in fact, surprisingly true. It feels a little awful to think of being here as freeing, but it's undeniable that some burdens can only be relieved after death, and it would feel equally bad to be unappreciative of the extra time they've gotten despite their fates.]
Yeah. To be honest, even knowing this place isn't anything like what I'm used to, I never thought that dying would be like this.
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I was merely curious. It was quite the weight on you.
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I'm okay. You don't have to worry about me. [Local man says, always. But... Dion was there that night, and even though Luke is still very much the sort of person who keeps things close to his chest, he's been forced to talk about this often enough by now that the apology comes a little more easily than it used to.] ...But I'm sorry for--making you deal with that.
[He has apologized to so many fucking people for painblasting them and they have all told him to stop being an idiot but THAT SIGN CAN'T STOP HIM BECAUSE HE CAN'T READ etc]
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It's a little difficult to believe the reassurances of a man who sought desperately not to be a burden even as a child.
[ he's just pointing this out, but his smile is sympathetic ]
But I will put my trust in you. And you needn't apologize. The pain was yours, and I am only sorry we weren't able to assist you before your passing.
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He looks awkward at the call-out, because he's still so unhappy about his secrets being pried out of him, but there's nothing to be done for it now.]
Don't be. [He doesn't stress that there was nothing they could've done anyway; he gets the sense Dion understands that.] I've been better down here than I was up there. ...A few of us have been.
[Which is kind of fucked up and he doesn't like to think about it too much, but it is the truth.]
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Somehow... Perhaps it is simply that after death, there's little else to lose? [ hmm ] Though I am not sure how dead I feel, being here with you all.
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Yeah. To be honest, even knowing this place isn't anything like what I'm used to, I never thought that dying would be like this.