... Sometimes. I feel as though I have been angry a long time, though rage is unbecoming of a prince, and all the more intimidating when coming from someone of my station, so I often try to restrain myself.
[ this is very ironic given what ultimately happened during execution but ]
You ever consider lettin' it out? It's no good to keep that kind of thing inside for so long. Take it from a guy who's watched countless people over the years give in to their rage and had it fuck 'em up for the rest of their lives. Might be a little too late now, I know, but...
[ he stands straight, locking eyes with dion. though his posture initially suggests aggression, there's none to be found in his expression. his eyes reflect only compassion, understanding, an offer to help. ]
I promise—I won't judge you for anything you say in this room, between you and me. I won't say a word to anyone else.
[ he should know that... he is the warden of light ]
Alright, if you speak true, then...
[ ... ]
Though in truth, I am unsure if it is anger or grief that I feel. I am frustrated at my inability to control myself, at constantly letting down others, of betraying the ideals I claim to hold.
Most days I wonder why it is that I exist, if it is only to bring misery to that which surrounds me.
You know, you sound a lot like someone I really admire and respect. And heh, now that I think about it, he ended up rising to power and popularity as governor too, and that's basically the closest thing we've got to nobility. —Uh, besides the imperial family, of course, but they don't really have any political power or military sway, and ...
[ . . . he trails off and chuckles under his breath, a little embarrassed. with a quick shake of his head to clear his brain, he hangs his head and says, ]
Sorry. Lemme start over. Di-chan... [ he looks back up. ] You kinda remind me of my brother.
[ did you remember this thread is happening during memshare week (20:58-30:18)? ]
family is so... complicated. but he can feel it in his chest. the feeling of someone you love and respect transforming into someone else. trying to discern how to save someone from themselves. ]
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he nods ]
Sir Ichiban.
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You know, I've always kind of liked the "sir" thing. Makes me feel a little like an actual hero, heheh.
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... I am glad for it. I am sure you would make a fine example for all those who seek to do good.
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[ ... ]
...All that anger, that rage... that how you really feel, Di-chan?
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... Sometimes. I feel as though I have been angry a long time, though rage is unbecoming of a prince, and all the more intimidating when coming from someone of my station, so I often try to restrain myself.
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You ever consider lettin' it out? It's no good to keep that kind of thing inside for so long. Take it from a guy who's watched countless people over the years give in to their rage and had it fuck 'em up for the rest of their lives. Might be a little too late now, I know, but...
[ he stands straight, locking eyes with dion. though his posture initially suggests aggression, there's none to be found in his expression. his eyes reflect only compassion, understanding, an offer to help. ]
I promise—I won't judge you for anything you say in this room, between you and me. I won't say a word to anyone else.
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And I would hate to dampen your light with my sorrows.
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Alright, if you speak true, then...
[ ... ]
Though in truth, I am unsure if it is anger or grief that I feel. I am frustrated at my inability to control myself, at constantly letting down others, of betraying the ideals I claim to hold.
Most days I wonder why it is that I exist, if it is only to bring misery to that which surrounds me.
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[ . . . he trails off and chuckles under his breath, a little embarrassed. with a quick shake of his head to clear his brain, he hangs his head and says, ]
Sorry. Lemme start over. Di-chan... [ he looks back up. ] You kinda remind me of my brother.
[ did you remember this thread is happening during memshare week (20:58-30:18)? ]
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family is so... complicated. but he can feel it in his chest. the feeling of someone you love and respect transforming into someone else. trying to discern how to save someone from themselves. ]
... I must ask you to elaborate, Sir Ichiban.